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07 December 2010 @ 08:55 pm
fic: home is where the heart is  
This is for my advent calendar. I know, I'm running a few days behind (this was supposed to be for the 5th) and I apologize but I hope you like it anyway! :)

Title: Home is Where the Heart is
Fandom: Smallville
Pairing/Character(s): Clark/Oliver
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: all characters belong to CW/DC Comics
Word Count: 2312
Spoilers/Warnings: none/slash
Summary: Clark and Oliver reunite on Christmas Eve
Author's Notes: For ravenjune; thanks to my beta boltgirl426 for all her help!

“Clark?”

Clark Kent snapped out of his thoughts, and turned his attention toward the person saying his name, only to find his mother, Kara, Lois and Chloe staring at him with worried expressions on their faces.

“Yeah?” he asked.

“Are you all right, sweetie?” Martha questioned. “You’ve been out of it the entire evening.”

Forcing a smile, he said, “I am fine.” But he knew he wasn’t fooling anyone. Hell, if he couldn’t make himself believe those words, how could he convince the people who knew him best?

“I’m sorry,” he added, “What were you guys saying?”

“Nothing important, Smallville,” Lois assured him. “Chloe was just asking when the General was going to be here, and I said that the weather probably held him up.”

“Well, it’s still early,” Chloe chipped in, glancing at the clock.

Clark nodded, trying to seem interested. Lois’s father was joining them for dinner, as was her sister. Chloe’s dad was even going to make the drive. It was going to be a nice, large dinner. But even the thought of having a lot of people over did nothing to snap him out of his bad mood.

It was Christmas Eve; he should be happy. His mom had come home, Chloe and Lois were both there, and even Kara had made it back. The farm was all decorated, and his mother had cooked enough food to feed over a dozen people. Everything was perfect. But he wasn’t happy. No, he was lost and lonely, even when surrounded by the ones he loved.

Maybe because the one person who you want to be here isn’t. He closed his eyes, lost in thoughts of chocolate brown eyes, spiky blonde hair and a smile that always caused his heart to race. Don’t think about him. You have to move on. But that was easier said than done.

One thing was for certain: he needed to get out of there. Standing up suddenly, he announced, “I’m going to take a walk.”

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw them exchange concerned looks, but he couldn’t bring himself to reassure them. Instead, he just grabbed his jacket (for appearance’s sake, of course) and left.

Once outside, he took a deep breath, taking a moment to appreciate his surroundings. Smallville in winter really was beautiful. A few months ago, he had been excited for the holidays, thinking that he had finally found someone to share his life with and looking forward to spending Christmas with said person, but that hadn’t been the case.

Swallowing hard, he pushed the thoughts out of his head. Yet that’s all he could think of. Growling in frustration, he decided the walk wasn’t good enough. So he broke into a run, the world disappearing as he sped through Smallville.

Stopping a few minutes later, Clark looked around. Realizing where he had stopped, he sighed. No matter how much he tried to forget, it was clear that his heart led him to the place where his mind was avoiding going.

Now he was standing in front of the LuthorCorp building, which hid the man he loved. The man he was afraid he would always be in love with … Oliver Queen. Even standing at ground level, he could see a light on. Clearly, Ollie was stilling working.

It felt like ages since he had seen his ex-boyfriend, but the other man was never far from his mind. Clark hardly remembered why they broke up, but he had regretted it every single day after, just had too much pride to go and make amends.

Their relationship had started off so well, and then just taken a turn for the worse. However, Clark had never been happier than he had been when he was with Oliver, and now … now, he was miserable.

He just couldn’t go on like this anymore. Maybe if he talked to Oliver … maybe if Oliver missed him as much as he missed him ... then they could have a second chance. This time, he wouldn’t let go; he would fight, because a future without Oliver by his side wasn’t one he wanted to imagine.

Walking toward the door, he tried to open it but much to his displeasure, he found it to be locked. Taking a few steps back, he frowned. There was a balcony outside Oliver’s office, but how could he get there? Sure, he could’ve called, but a quick check proved that he had left his cell phone at home.

For not the first time, he wished he could fly. I need to get up there. The longing he felt to see Oliver, to hold him in his arms was overwhelming. If flying was what it would took, then damn it, he would fly. He hadn’t flown since he was possessed by Kal-El.

But that is Kal-El, he reminded himself. All of a sudden, a realization hit him. He was Kal-El. So he should be able to fly. Perhaps that was the problem all along; he had been separating his two identities. Up till now, he was either Clark Kent or Kal-El but in reality, he was both.

What if he never needed to learn how to fly? All this time, he might have been able to fly already, just needed to really try. All he really had to do was believe.

Seconds after figuring that out, he was in the air. No longer was flight just a possibility but a reality; he was flying. Moments later, he landed on Oliver’s balcony, stunned at the discovery of the power he had been fighting for ages to conquer. Finally.

But he would dwell on this later. His mind went blank as he looked through the glass, seeing the man he loved behind it. Oliver was sitting at his desk, quietly working. He wasn’t smiling; just seriously staring at his laptop. Clark’s heart broke at the sight.

Come on, Kent. You can do this. Taking a deep breath, he summed up all his courage and knocked at the large glass doors.

Oliver started at the sound, his gaze darting toward it. Their eyes met and Oliver’s expression changed to one of shock. Clark smiled and gave a little wave. That seemed to bring him back to reality, and Ollie quickly stood, making his way to the door in a few long strides.

Unlocking it, he slid it opened and stared at Clark. “What are you doing here?”

“I was in the area and thought I’d stop by?” Clark offered, smiling sheepishly. Now that he was face-to-face with Oliver, he realized how unprepared he really was.

Oliver raised an eyebrow, but moved aside. “Well, then you might as well come in.”

Clark did just that. Ollie locked the door behind him and gestured to the couch. “Have a seat.”

“Thanks,” Clark responded, sitting on the aforementioned couch.

Ollie sat back on his desk chair and watched him. An awkward silence fell, neither quite knowing what to say. Clark was the first to speak.

“So,” he said, rubbing his hands together, not quite meeting Oliver’s gaze. “How are you?” Wow, that was lame. But he really didn’t have anything better.

“I’m okay,” Oliver said slowly. “And yourself?”

“I’m fine,” Clark answered. That’s a lie. Forcing himself to look up, his green eyes locked with Oliver’s brown ones and he realized that Ollie didn’t believe it either.

“Sure you are,” Oliver retorted. “That’s exactly why, instead of being with mom on Christmas Eve, you’re in my office.” The blond frowned. “Speaking of which, how did you even get up on the balcony?”

“I flew,” Clark muttered before he could stop himself. Ollie heard him and his jaw dropped.

“Excuse me?”

“I flew,” Clark repeated.

“But … since when can you fly?” Oliver questioned, visibly bewildered.

“Since just now,” Clark explained. Ducking his head, he continued, “The doors were locked and I wanted to see you. This was the only way I could get here.”

“You started flying because you wanted to see me?” Oliver questioned. There was something about the way he said it that had Clark lifting his head once more. An unrecognizable emotion had filled Ollie’s eyes.

“Yes,” was the only word that escaped his lips.

“It must be something important then,” Oliver remarked. “But I can’t imagine that it would be so important that you would sacrifice time with your mother on Christmas Eve just to see me. She is home, isn’t she?”

“Yeah, mom’s there,” Clark admitted. “Kara, Lois, and Chloe are at the farm too. The General, Lucy, and Mr. Sullivan should be showing up shortly.”

“Sounds nice,” Oliver commented.

“It should be,” Clark agreed. “But I don’t know.” Hearing footsteps, Clark was surprised as Oliver stood up and walked to his side. Taking a seat by Clark, Oliver smiled sympathetically. Clark did his best not to be affected by Ollie’s closeness but it was difficult.

“What’s wrong, Clark?” Oliver asked. Clark didn’t speak for a few minutes, trying to gather his thoughts, wondering what exactly he should spill. He knew whom his heart belonged to but did Ollie still feel the same way?

“I felt lonely,” Clark finally confessed. “Even with everyone there, I felt lonely.”

“Sometimes, even when surrounded by a crowd, a person can get lonely,” Oliver said. Clark turned toward him. Of course Oliver understood; that was the story of his life. Then again, when it came to him, Ollie always seemed to understand.

“Why are you here, Oliver?” Clark found himself asking.

“What?” Oliver was visibly puzzled at the sudden turn of the conversation.

“It’s Christmas Eve and you’re working,” Clark clarified. “Why?”

“What else am I supposed to do?” Oliver asked, his eyes no longer meeting Clark’s.

“You could come to the farm, with us,” Clark suggested. “I know that I invited you when we were still together, but even if we hadn’t been dating, I would’ve invited you over anyway.”

Ollie just sighed. “It would be weird, Clark, and we both know it.”

“No, it wouldn’t,” Clark insisted. “Just because we aren’t together anymore, does that mean we can’t be around each other either? You and Lois are friends.”

“It took a long time for Lois and I to get to where we are now,” Ollie reminded him.

“That’s could be because you and Lois just dated and later had to learn to be friends,” Clark persisted. “The two of us were friends first. Why is it so hard to go back to that?” He didn’t know why he was pushing on being friends, but he needed Oliver in his life any way he could get him. Besides, if Ollie was satisfied with friendship, that might mean he only wanted that, but if he wasn’t, it could be because he still had feelings, just like Clark. There was only one way to find out.

“Maybe one day, Clark, but not now,” Oliver was saying, a frown marring his handsome features.

“Not now … because you still have feelings for me?” Clark asked, unable to keep the note of hope out of his voice. It was a risky move, but he was ready to take a risk. Too many times he had hid his feelings in fear of rejection but now … now he couldn’t do that any longer. What was the worst that could happen?

Shoulders slumping, Oliver said, “Clark …”

“Because I still have feelings for you,” Clark said quickly. Ollie froze at that. “That’s why I felt lonely today, Oliver, because even though I was surrounded by people I love, you weren’t there,” Clark finished, staring at him.

For a few minutes, Oliver just didn’t speak, and with every second that passed, Clark grew more nervous and despondent. He feared more than ever Ollie was just thinking of a way to turn him down.

Finally, he couldn’t take it anymore and stood up, taking a few steps away. Ollie’s voice stopped him in his place.

“There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you, about us, and about how I let you walk out of my life.”

At this, Clark spun around, staring at him incredulously.

“But we broke up for a reason, right?” Oliver asked, brown eyes seeming to plead with him. “I can’t … I can’t have you and lose you again.”

“You won’t.” It was like someone switched their personalities, with Ollie being the insecure one and Clark knowing exactly what he wanted, what he needed.

“How do you know?” Oliver quizzed.

“Because I won’t walk away this time,” Clark vowed. Moving back toward him, he crouched at Ollie’s feet. “We both made mistakes before. Since we were friends, we thought it would be easy, and when it wasn’t, we fled. But it’s not easy living without you. It’s anything but easy.”

Ollie visibly softened. “I used to be fine on my own or at least that’s what I convinced myself. Since I met you, I don’t want to be alone anymore. I’ve never needed someone the way I need you. What have you done to me, Clark Kent?”

“Nothing less than what you’ve done to me,” Clark replied, his lips curving into a smile. Hesitating a moment, he leaned forward and much to his relief, Oliver closed the remaining distance, their lips meeting in a gentle kiss.

Pulling back after a moment, Oliver rested his forehead against Clark’s. “You do know that I won’t be able to let you go anymore, right? So, if you want to do this, you damn well better be ready to get stuck with me for life.”

Clark could only laugh. “That’s the only thing I want, Oliver. Trust me, I have no plans to let you go either.”

They exchanged smiles and for the first time in months, Clark knew that everything was going to be all right.
 
 
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phoenixnzphoenixnz on December 8th, 2010 05:13 am (UTC)
Aww, this was such a sweet story. It's nice to see Clark and Ollie learning from their mistakes and able to work past them. Welcome to an adult relationship.
svgurl: clark/oliver once upon a timesvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:25 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! :)

It's nice to see Clark and Ollie learning from their mistakes and able to work past them. Welcome to an adult relationship.
Well said! I tried to make them mature. I am happy it worked for you.

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment! :D
bradygirl_12: clark--ollie (country inn dinner)bradygirl_12 on December 8th, 2010 05:28 am (UTC)
Aww! I love this! Symbolic that Clark finally conquered his mental block about flying to get to Oliver. And an image of Peter Pan came into my mind, LOL!

Nicely done! :)
svgurl: dreaming of oliversvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:26 pm (UTC)
I am glad to hear that you enjoyed it! :D

Symbolic that Clark finally conquered his mental block about flying to get to Oliver. And an image of Peter Pan came into my mind, LOL!
LOL Peter Pan! Well, the man Clark loves likes green. ;)

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment! :D
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svgurl: dreaming of oliversvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:27 pm (UTC)
Yay! I'm glad to hear that you liked it! :D

brb re-readin : ))))
&hearts You're sweet to read it multiple times. :)
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svgurl: clark/oliver 'escape'svgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:30 pm (UTC)
I love how Clark realizes he can fly. That was brilliant :D I love how you wrote it; everything. bb call the show and give them tips, will ya? : )
Aww, that's really nice of you to say! I honestly wrote it like how I thought it would happen, especially since back in 'Crusade', Clark was all "Kal-El can fly". It makes me happy to hear that it worked for you. Wasn't planning on including the learning to fly but it just popped out of nowhere!

I loved the inclusion of the farm all Christmasy, all the details <3
I am terrible at beginnings and ends and I figured that I could start it at the farm. The image just came to me, lol.

I am also happy that my Ollie works for you! I could just picture the look on his face when he said that line, slightly vulnerable but trying to hide it.

Damn I wish I could requisition you to write a thousands sequels and stories like this LOLL that's how much I love this <3<3<3 this type (and quality level) of story is like an addiction for me ! <3<3
You make me blush with your comments. &hearts

Thank you so much for reading (and re-reading) and taking the time to leave such awesome feedback. It seriously made my day!
twilighthdfantwilighthdfan on December 8th, 2010 07:02 am (UTC)
Aww, this was so nice. Loved Clark learning how to fly when he needed to get to Ollie. And Ollie's confession ... aww.Great fic. Absolutely loved it :).
svgurl: clark/oliver nuzzlingsvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:32 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! :D

Loved Clark learning how to fly when he needed to get to Ollie. And Ollie's confession ... aww.
I hadn't planned on writing Clark learning to fly but my muses headed in that direction so I went with it, lol. I am happy to hear it worked for you!

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment! :)
Raven June: Loisravenjune on December 8th, 2010 07:15 am (UTC)
This is awesome! I absolutely loved it when Clark learned to fly because of Oliver :) thank you!
svgurl: clark/oliver nuzzlingsvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:35 pm (UTC)
I am really glad you liked it!

I absolutely loved it when Clark learned to fly because of Oliver :)
I didn't plan on the flying but it just headed in that direction and I went with it. I am happy that it worked for you.

You're more than welcome! &hearts
winterstorrm on December 8th, 2010 09:06 am (UTC)
Wonderful.
I don't read enough of these two, and they are so perfect together!
...must get my act toghether and watch the five episodes I have backed up of series Zod (can't remember the number)...it's just, I really do NOT like Zod - or more to the point Callum Blue, can't stand watching him.
Oh well, better bite the bullet for more Ollie and Clark!!
Anyway, great story, really lovely and heartwarming.
xx
svgurl: clark/oliver once upon a timesvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:24 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! :)

I don't read enough of these two, and they are so perfect together!
Agreed! Unfortunately, there's not a lot of fic out there. Sad that these two are so unappreciated.

...must get my act toghether and watch the five episodes I have backed up of series Zod (can't remember the number)...it's just, I really do NOT like Zod - or more to the point Callum Blue, can't stand watching him.
season 9? I actually liked Zod. Compared to a lot of villains (e.g. Doomsday) on the show, I felt he was quite good, well developed and quite interesting.

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to review!
Stef: Smallville - Oliver/Clark - Businessmanichaotic4life on December 8th, 2010 09:46 am (UTC)
Aw, that is so sweet! ♥
svgurl: clark/oliver 'escape'svgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you like it and think so! Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment. :D

Love your icon btw.
eternal_moonieeternal_moonie on December 8th, 2010 09:48 am (UTC)
Absolutely LOVE this clark/ollie story! *hugs*
svgurl: dreaming of oliversvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:37 pm (UTC)
I'm glad to hear that you enjoyed it! Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment. *hugs back*
Babydracky: Christmasbabydracky on December 8th, 2010 02:25 pm (UTC)
Awwwwwwww!! That was so very cute♥
Clark "learning" to fly all for his Ollie!♥
svgurl: dreaming of oliversvgurl on December 8th, 2010 11:38 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! :D

Clark "learning" to fly all for his Ollie!♥
I hadn't initially planned to go in that direction but the story did and I went with it. I just liked the idea and I am happy it worked for you too.

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment! :D
Calcus: smallville; three by threecalcus on December 10th, 2010 08:30 am (UTC)
♥ Oh that's lovely. I loved the bit with Clark learning to fly because he wanted to see Oliver and it was beautiful how you managed to convey that Oliver was as unhappy as Clark was with so few words.

Oliver was sitting at his desk, quietly working. He wasn’t smiling; just seriously staring at his laptop.

That's so sad. And yet the ending was so hopeful! I loved it. :D
svgurl: clark/oliver nuzzlingsvgurl on December 11th, 2010 12:12 am (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! :)

I loved the bit with Clark learning to fly because he wanted to see Oliver
That honestly was unplanned but the fic went that way and I just ran with it. I am happy to hear that it worked for you.

it was beautiful how you managed to convey that Oliver was as unhappy as Clark was with so few words.
I appreciate you saying that! I could imagine it in my head. I like to think that Ollie is kind of working and partly looking at old pictures on the computer of him and Clark. Yes, I do enjoy torturing him so. ;)

And of course I had to give the boys a happy ending. They deserve it!

Thanks so much for reading and taking the time to comment! :D
ctbn60: SV_CLark_oliver_Herosctbn60 on December 10th, 2010 09:17 pm (UTC)
This was really wonderful. I love how clark is so lost without oliver and that was the spark that prompted him to fly. I loved how they both realize they can't live without each other. It's a perfect christmas gift. Nice one!! I enjoyed it.
svgurl: dreaming of oliversvgurl on December 11th, 2010 12:14 am (UTC)
This was really wonderful.
I'm glad you liked it!

I love how clark is so lost without oliver and that was the spark that prompted him to fly.
To be honest, I hadn't initially planned on the Clark flying part but my muses went there and I decided to run with it. I am happy to hear that it worked!

I loved how they both realize they can't live without each other.
In my head, they can't. ;)

Thank so much for reading and taking the time to leave such lovely feedback! I do appreciate it.
Rose: TW upclosecrazy4ew on September 1st, 2011 04:33 am (UTC)
Lovely lovely fic. I just love their relationship. Nicely done.
svgurl: clark/oliver nuzzlingsvgurl on September 1st, 2011 07:37 am (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it! I love their relationship too,even when they're being stubborn and angsty. :D

Thanks for reading and taking the time to comment! :D
Rose: OTPcrazy4ew on November 3rd, 2011 04:09 am (UTC)
well worth the re-read! I remembered this one... so touching at Xmas time! ::happy sigh::
svgurlsvgurl on November 4th, 2011 11:25 pm (UTC)
Glad to hear it! And I guess it is appropriate with the holidays fast approaching. :D